Why You May Be Lying To Yourself-Especially If You've Got MS

So much of the constant struggle with multiple sclerosis is a mental game. Who do you turn to in the darkest hours?

When reading the commentary from people struggling with any disease the feeling of aloneness is ever present. The feeling of rejection and abandonment is hard to overcome.

Why me?

What did I do to deserve this?

How could a loving God have allowed this to happen to me?

I have gone through all these emotions and more. The questions in my mind have always been what could I have done to prevent this. Is this disease a punishment for past actions, or lack of faith in God? I know intellectually that this was not a punishment.

You may think I'm crazy, but I have come to consider this disease as a gift. This gift was given to me to serve a higher purpose. The person that I have developed into could not have happened without this disease. We choose whether something is good or bad. I have learned to not treat this as either good or bad. It just is.

In reading the book, Learning to Tell Myself the Truth, by William Backus I started to discover the destructive talk going on in my head. This is a six week guide to eliminating anger, anxiety, depression, and perfection.

When my pastor identified me with every one of these problems: anxiety, anger, and depression over MS.

The next week I saw Pastor Don and had not read a page in my new book,my response was that I had not started it yet. He responded that this was not for everyone and it was OK. Boy that got me upset, I started the book that afternoon, and found it challenged me to recognize what I was telling myself.

Have you ever felt any of these feeling?

Anxiety: I worry about everything that could possibly go wrong
Perfectionism: If something bad happens I should be able to handle it better than I do
Depression: Unable to pick yourself up, not being grateful for what you do have, because I have MS I'm not good enough/or why would you love me.

This book started with a list of questions on how you felt about the individual topics listed above. He then expertly moved you from these questions to your individual truth. How what we tell ourselves is wrong much of the time.

We need to admit that we are a work in process.

I am confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion for it is God who works in you to will and to act according to his good. Phil. 1:6, 2:13

Forgive yourself for all the bad things that you are telling yourself and move on with love. Remember that you are a creature of God, perfect in design. God's perfect love is surrounding you and there is a purpose to everything. Even when we don't understand it, give up your need to control every situation and release it to Him.

This doesn't happen overnight, but books like Learning to Tell Myself the Truth, are a start. You need to start today to reclaim your life. Stop telling yourself the lies. You are good enough and will ultimately succeed. It's taken me nineteen years to realize it. Now I am open to a great world of loving supporters who want the best for me. But this did not happen until I first learned to love myself and accept myself for who I am. A creature of God created in His image with the incredible power to choose how I will look at things. There is no good or bad, there just is.

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Robert Groth is the author of "Conquer Multiple Sclerosis". To receive a FREE Ebook go to www.conquerms.com

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